Continue the Journey

Hye
14/2/2016 bang! my holiday end
Tonight is my last night at home before I'm going back to hostel (I don't want)

*taking a deep breath*

Ok actually there are so many things that I should just go through
Ugh feels like I cannot
But I try to put on my mind, "that's gonna be okay"

There's a lot of thing such,
I'm gonna live in my new dorm.I need to accept this no matter what and this driving me insane past few weeks till now.I really cannot (can I cry)
Be strong dearself.This gonna be okay.
Your new dormates are awesome (yea I hope so)
I hope I'm not being abandon and so on
I need to adapt with them ya I have to 

Then,the most important thing is,Myself
I keep thinking about myself,but I just keep thinking without taking any action to change myself.
This whole holiday spent by go shopping and fangirling
Really unproductive holiday right
I will sit for SPM but I still in lazy state
What happen to myself huhu

Cut those things out!
This road is still long and you just at 1/4 kilometres
You need enough fuel to finish the journey
So I need to 100% ready for SPM
Don't think you can't
Think you can!

#notetodearself

see again,bye

Apology

Hye!
Nothing much serious story I wanna share today but I gotta share about my favourite song which has such a deep meaning and touched my heart and also related to my few experience that I wanna share tonight

The song entitled "Apology" sing by boyband group named iKON.This song released about 2 or 3 months ago I don't really remember the exactly date this song had been released.As the tittle shown,you can guess what the whole song about right? So here, the lyrics of this song....

You were always at the same place,

Waiting for me but,

I was gone,I was gone

Don't trust me like a fool,

When I said I would protect you,

They're all lies

Especially today,the typical scenes on the tv drama,

That I always watch are laughing at me,

Like a criminal,I run away,

You yell at me to go away,

You always knew that I'm selfish,

I think you were burdensome to me by wanting a little attention,

Without even leaving that one photo,

I think of myself only,even on the last moment,

Sorry,sorry,

Sorry for not being able to protect you,

I hope you live well,

Sorry,sorry,forget about me,it hurts,

The promise we made to be together forever no longer exists,

Sorry for not being able to protect you,

I'm always at a different place,

Every night with my friends,

I'm out all night,

There's one last missed call from you on my phone that's flipped over,

Today,the radio played the songs that we enjoyed together,

And I hope I'm just one of the many people in your life,

That come and go like the wind,

I hope that as tears and cherry blossoms fall,

There will be new life sprouting from them,and

I hope our memories are short and beautiful,just like the sunset,

And I hope,all of these thins are able to push at your slender back with good nature,

Sorry,sorry I couldn't protect you,

I hope you'll be well,

I hope you forget me as well,although it hurts,

Now I just can't say anything,

I'm sorry that I'm not good enough,

That until the very end,I only show you a small part of me,

I couldn't fill you up,

Please forgive me.I hope you meet someone better than me,kinder than me,

I'm sorry I couldn't keep it..

Such a beautiful and meaningful words right.This song make me think....

It's good if all the guys in this world are like that.I mean they know they're wrong.Bcs almostly,the broken relationship are caused by the guy.Yea you know how ego are they.okay I'm not here to blame the guy.I'm just saying my thoughts based on my experience.Girls mostly,hate their ex-boyfriend after the break up,like that guy is totally a damn and so on.But,when it comes to guy,it just like... "ok whatever,do I need to care?" mostly the guy are like that and I think that is really not a gentleman behaviour.After a few months or few moments,girl will be like "go get a life la dude I don't need u".That means they'd move on.Perhaps.And the things that I like to remind is,guy always being "bajet hot" or "perasan" that their ex-girlfriend still care about themself then act like,hate that girl or avoiding her and bla bla bla.Omg seriously dude,that girl really don't need a trash like you.It just your feeling that you must get rid all of them.

As the closing,

Life is beautiful,don't bother yourself think about that shitty broken things.

Just do what makes you happy and be positive all the time,

If there are still the person like that,just ignore them.They just don't exist actually.hahaha

So,enjoy this holiday and Happy CNY (not too late to wish right?)

till we meet again,xo

Beginning of 2016

Hi!

So now is already 2016.
WELCOME 2016
Two Thousand Sixteen will be a tough year for me bcs I will sit for SPM *gunshot* *bang* *dush*
Ok,
Basically 2016 begun with not-so-happy-feeling yah like Idk how to describe.
On the first day I went back to hostel with a very heavy heart.I gotta know my dorm was not at the same floor like before and I felt so not satisfied with that but I REDHA je lah as long I still have the same beloved dormates.
Then I went to the hall to register for school and gotta know my class
I'm in 5 Jannatul Khuldi and when I read through the list name *bam!*
I'm in the same class with my ex and I was like "what on earth mannnn"
I don't know to feel excited or what bcs I will face him for this whole year and everyday!
I remind myself  'its okay,I'd move on'
I felt so-so to be in that class like ugh lantak ah pape pun
Then I'm being force to be assistant of the class LOL
The sad thing is tak sekelas dah dgn Zaim hahahahahahaha okbye

actually tak move on dgn 4JA.I really miss that class and I want us to be in the same class lagi this year but...........
Ok takpelah REDHA je la kan
Belajar ok. Cikgu pun ok
Then,
A few days before MSSD Basketball and Ujian 1,I got fever
I'm sick for a week and I miss the Ujian also MSSD
Like the worst fever I ever had huhu
Takpe ujian Allah nak bagi. REDHA
At the same time when I was in fever, on 25 January,
I'm official 17.Tua dah kan masyaallah

Celebrate birthday dalam demam haih sungguhlah tak seronok.Kat hospital plak tu
By the way Thank you so much kepada yang wish! :))
After few days, at school,
I got shocked bcs "Dorm Kuning 3 dirombak"
and I was like "wth mannn why must be my dorm"
Dahlah kene tukar floor then now kami nak dirombak dan pindah masuk ke dorm lain?
Wth buat keputusan tak bincang dulu dengan kami
Kecewa,Sedih,Marah semua ada
Tak pernah rasa semarah ni dalam hidup
A week past but still rasa tak boleh terima hakikat yang nama KUNING 3 dah takde
Dah penat marah,Penat sedih.Tak larat dah.nak cepat SPM then keluar dari sekolah
Mama ayah cakap jangan jadikan bende tu masalah besar,fokus SPM je
Thank you mama ayah for give me strength.I feel alive
Takpelah REDHA je.
The worst beginning but I'm trying my best to be positive all the time
All the things happen for a reason right?
Hashtag Redha.HAHAHAHA

That's all
Bye
안녕!

p/s:homework menggunung setinggi gunung kinabalu lmao